sometimes, strong friendships can be that volatile.
moments of the late have been pretty bizarre. an uneven mixture of feelings. a dash of happiness, a hint of sadness, a load of craziness, a pinch of fear; basically almost everything there is to feel.

school was draggy on thursday. and PE was all i remembered of yesterday. mostly. played tchouk ball(: it was really fun. hahaha. i've always anticipated PE days, cuz its fun and you dun have to worry about not having brains. love that fact. there's PE on monday. (: yayyyyyyyyy!!

was happy during recess. crazy during english. struggling during math. hardworking during bio. sleepy during chinese. slacking during library. all in one day. how awesome. ohh and i'm screwed for chinese. i think:/

finished my homeworks. lotsa tests/ exams coming upD:
1. 23/02: EMath on Practical Situation
2. 24/02: Chem SPA
3. 25/02: Biology on Excretion and Homeostasis
4. 03/03: Biology SPA
5. (week 9): Chem on Speed of Rxn and Redox

shall study bio before going jumbo ltr to celebrate birthday(: cant wait to get my hands on stephenie laurens novels. hey everyone needs a little love in their life riight.
hahaha. so valentines and cny celebration in school was a little screwed cuz of some gl teacher who confiscated stuff and ruined our joyous mood. but then the nice cards and lollipops from fion and cookies from homing up-ed us a little. hahaha. the concert was humourous especially the tigger part. hahaha. lion dance = scaryD:

gave out almost all my vday cards(: (: except for afew ppl i couldn't find. my hand still aches from writing those:/ but worth it luhh huh(:

went to eat lunch @ seoul garden. my first time there. haha to celebrate cny + valentines' + huimin's birthday. lunch was great. but the outing was rather fail. HAHAHA. cuz we were waiting most of the time instead of enjoying oursleves. it would have been better if only you were there.

okayy cant wait for tmr(: moneymoneymoney. HAHAHA=p
hi.

ate breakfast technically just with tingjia cuz glenn wasn't eating anything. so yea. i rly admire the fact that he can refrain himself from eating when ppl are munching away. what more when he and bengjui used to take turns to buy food. gosh. if it was me, i would have just pinched on his food. yea, i'm a greedy pig. HAHAHA. see uhh, so fat now:/

math test on prob, sd, and quartile percentile was okayy luhh. was so freaked out last night to know that it was today. omg. okayy uhh. but i was kinda choinging through the last question cause when i just got started on it, mr choi was like: " 1 min left.." so it was an ultimate scribble. gosh hopefully he's able to read it. HAHAHA. i feel happy its over. and chinese test tmr. groans + screwed:/

JEK'S birthday tmr. haven buy anything yet ehh. HAHAHA. i wanted to tease mok, but instead i got mixed and asked her : "eh JEK. tmr MOK'S birthday uhh." what joke.
and she smack ppl pain sia. watch out jek(:

ate with cherly and pyy @ koufu, west mall:D met with an accident @ the clementi junctionD: not us uhh. but the mann's doing fine. no injuries/ bruises. he's damn strong for he's age mann. clarissa, mdm zainah and a few others were helping him up. model clementeens mann. haha not like us, stand down there, whats that called, ohh xiu shou pang guan. HAHAHA. lol no uhh, is we slow. when we realise got accident, they helping him up from his bike ler.

played a stupid lame game and got owned:/ and AWWWW, i couldn't find STEPHENIE LAURENS'S BOOKS @ popular:/ and her novels are sooooo hot that they're all on loan in the libraryD: nvm luhh i'm going borders to buy. HAHAHA. they have a whole lot of her books there. and yessss. this is called obsession(:
bought a stack of blank name cards. hopefully it would come in handy on v-day. HAHAHA. cherly's idea(thanks mann)

okayy still owe ms pham sbq and mr choi math wb qns. argh. bye.
pissed.

everyone's been down and emo these days, and you just get influenced:/ g****, e*****, f***, h*****, y******* (dun wanna reveal their identities)

had this weird dream that seemed real. i flung my o lvls and got separated with you cuz you kinda got all A's. seriously not a pleasant feeling. seperation. distance. cold. hate it. so close.
i am a selfish person that this want for you is turning into a ravenous need. uncontrollable. raging. at least this would motivate me. for now. hopefully forever; since you're kinda stuck in my heart. deal with it.

sucks that me and b****** aren't as close as before. we used to laugh together, share secrets, make fun, meet up for lunch. now is just like this invisible division between us. idk what happened. it just did. i miss her. so much. i wish i could tell her. but i just cant:/

miss bball. played with pinjia, gerald, guiyi they all. lifted my mood a little. then things resumed. swimming doesn't help as much anymore. used to swim and cry away in the water. then no one would realise. and my sorrow would end as soon as i splash out of the pool. not working anymore.

people should just be themselves. why waste your life tryin to be someone you're obviously not. i mean whats the point? so you'll fit in? really. not worth it at all. and you'll make others sad too. when they find out you're just that facade. love yourself the way God created you(:

this post is emo all the way so i shall end it on a happy note(:
hmm. thank you tingjia for being understanding and forgiving me and staying by my side always=D thank you pyy for suaning me and cracking really funny jokes to cheer me and those who are down up(: and i REALLY love that adventures of karen and pyy alot. HAHAHA thanks for the sharing!! and eunice for keeping me company in class and accompanying me to toilet always and tolerating my slowness(okayy i admit):/ glenn for giving me plenty of love advice and comfort. jianhong for being nice and bhb to make me laugh like crazy. ice ice!! HAHAHA. and homing for being a superb listener and advice giver and helping me give s**** to ******** thank youu all for making my life so colourful(: