pissed.

everyone's been down and emo these days, and you just get influenced:/ g****, e*****, f***, h*****, y******* (dun wanna reveal their identities)

had this weird dream that seemed real. i flung my o lvls and got separated with you cuz you kinda got all A's. seriously not a pleasant feeling. seperation. distance. cold. hate it. so close.
i am a selfish person that this want for you is turning into a ravenous need. uncontrollable. raging. at least this would motivate me. for now. hopefully forever; since you're kinda stuck in my heart. deal with it.

sucks that me and b****** aren't as close as before. we used to laugh together, share secrets, make fun, meet up for lunch. now is just like this invisible division between us. idk what happened. it just did. i miss her. so much. i wish i could tell her. but i just cant:/

miss bball. played with pinjia, gerald, guiyi they all. lifted my mood a little. then things resumed. swimming doesn't help as much anymore. used to swim and cry away in the water. then no one would realise. and my sorrow would end as soon as i splash out of the pool. not working anymore.

people should just be themselves. why waste your life tryin to be someone you're obviously not. i mean whats the point? so you'll fit in? really. not worth it at all. and you'll make others sad too. when they find out you're just that facade. love yourself the way God created you(:

this post is emo all the way so i shall end it on a happy note(:
hmm. thank you tingjia for being understanding and forgiving me and staying by my side always=D thank you pyy for suaning me and cracking really funny jokes to cheer me and those who are down up(: and i REALLY love that adventures of karen and pyy alot. HAHAHA thanks for the sharing!! and eunice for keeping me company in class and accompanying me to toilet always and tolerating my slowness(okayy i admit):/ glenn for giving me plenty of love advice and comfort. jianhong for being nice and bhb to make me laugh like crazy. ice ice!! HAHAHA. and homing for being a superb listener and advice giver and helping me give s**** to ******** thank youu all for making my life so colourful(: